Being in college is a lot harder than I expected it to be in regard to time. I just don’t have a lot of time to work on creative endeavors, or to get an adequate amount of sleep. I’d like to say it’s because I’m so busy having fun and doing things and being awesome, but for the most part, I’m just sitting in my room doing homework. Super lame, I know. But I’m kind of addicted to school.
Time isn’t the only thing, though. I just can’t get motivated to do it, to write often enough that I can actually keep up with my blog the way I should. I tried to write something a few months ago about my lack of activity here, but I never even got around to finishing it.
After months of guilt because I wasn’t writing anything, I finally approached the holiday season, and I thought maybe, just maybe, I would finally write something. A whole month off from school with no responsibilities? What would I do with my time? The possibilities were endless! I’d planned to write something shortly after I got home and maybe re-establish a schedule that I could actually stick to, and maybe even continue to write after going back to school. But instead I wasted three weeks doing pretty much nothing. Why, you ask? I really don’t know. I have no excuse. I thought about writing every day, and I never did it. So here I am, in the very last week of my month-long break, finally apologizing for having not written anything in about four and a half months.
As a peace offering, here are some of the things I’ve been up to recently. I’ve done a lot of schoolwork, and therefore finished my first semester of college (with grades I’m proud of). I’ve spent a lot of time with my family since I’ve been home. I’ve enjoyed a lot of things, and I’ve also wasted a lot of time. I hate how much time I’ve wasted, but at least I can go back to school rested and ready to get back to work, right? I’ve done some really fun things in the last few months, and also some things that weren’t so fun.
So here I am, writing after several months of not writing. It’s exhilarating, and it’s also a little weird. Am I rambling? Most likely. Sorry about that. But not really. Anyway, the future. I would like to say I’m going to start writing for my blog regularly, that it was a New Year’s resolution and that I’m definitely going to stick to it. But alas, I know that’s not true. If I were to make such a resolution, it would fall apart within a number of weeks, and then I would just hate myself until I did something worthwhile, which doesn’t happen often. You can see how that would be bad, right?
Really, things aren’t going to change much. I’m not setting any sort of schedule for when I’ll write again because I just don’t want to disappoint myself. It’ll likely be quite a while before I write anything else, and for that I’m sorry. But that’s just the way it is. I can't bookmark my life and move on, then come back whenever I feel like it. I just have to keep reading.
P.S. If you have any suggestions on staying motivated to do creative things that you actually enjoy, please tell me what they are. I need all the help I can get.